The Shout

 

I shouted very hard

Not for others to listen

But for me to hear, I shouted

Sitting in a hospital bed, thinking what will happen next. Cut to

Sitting in an office, looking at books and politics. Cut to

Sitting at home, seeing how much of a failure you are as a son. Cut to

Sitting with your partner and telling her to go. Cut to

Sitting alone on a beach, thinking about the friends I lost. Cut to

Making a suicide attempt and living like a dead body. Cut to

Drinking until I am sleeping on a footpath. Cut to

Sleeping and waking from a strange dream. Cut to

Saving myself from snake bites. Cut to

Trying to stay positive, thinking this phase will pass.

I shouted very hard

Not for others to listen

But for me to hear, I shouted

I hope this time you will hear me,

or maybe I will hear myself.

- Vishwanath